I feel embarrassed and ashamed. I shouldn't though.
I knew it was too much for me but I did it anyway.
Now deal with it, darling.
Head up. After all I have done nothing wrong.
So why do I feel so wrong?
No one to blame, just me.
As she says, I still go a lot after what others think/say rather than try to think for myself, or do what I think I should do.
But I'm learning. With my own mistakes but learning.